Today is...

07/08/09

cool, right?

Hello again

Ohmygod, I haven't been here for a long loooonnnnggg time : Life has been very active lately. As in, so many things have happened that I was - still am - very distracted from just sitting in front of my laptop and type on the keyboard. Do not panic though, I shall try to post something again soon. Hopefully. Hahaha. Okay, that's it for now. I just wanted you guys to know that I'm still alive and I won't break my promise of abandoning this place of awesomeness.

Currently: sabaw (since yesterday)

I'd go wherever you will go

I'm supposed to be in Bora right now with you. But my parents won't allow me, just because. :

6 days left before you go and leave for the States. And we still haven't met up.

I'm missing you already. :(

It's official! :D

Roger Federer FINALLY got married to his long-time girlfriend Mirka! :D :D

Read Roger's announcement here: http://www.rogerfederer.com/en/rogers/news/newsdetail.cfm?uNewsID=889

Becoming a dad and now a husband in one year! @-) You're tennis career might be going down hill (it's going to go up again though, like a rollercoaster! I believe in you!) nowadays, but your personal life's just blooming! Congrats to you! :D

Go Fed!

Bisita Iglesia, Bataan, Being sensitive 101

Notice how they all start with a B? :))

I really say 'Visita Iglesia', but for this blog's creativity's sake, it's 'Bisita', aryt? Cool.

14 stations, 12 churches

How did that happen, you ask? The original plan was one station per church, but almost everyone was tired by the end that we decided to do two stations each for the last two churches. Makes sense now? :))

We haven't done Visita in I think 3 years so it felt good to finally do it again. It's like a family tradition because I've been doing it ever since I can remember. It was our whole family plus our 2 maids, my tito, tita, and 2 cousins. We met up and started in Merville, then went to Moonwalk, then (not in order because I forgot which went first) other parts of Paranaque, then Baclaran, then Quezon City (UST!),then Las Pinas, then the university belt area, then Intramuros, then the Manila Bay area. It was weird because there were A LOT of people in Manila than we expected, coz usually everyone would already be in the provinces or abroad and only a few would be left in the city. The churches were all packed and it was mostly traffic! I guess a lot changed in those 3 years. :P

After around 7 hours of travelling, walking, sweating, praying, sight-seeing, etc., we finally finished all the stations. As a reward/our lunch at 3:30 PM, we ate in Aristocrat! Everyone was galit-galit (meaning not talking to/minding each other) as we ate our plates of barbecue chicken with java sauce and java rice. We started being friendly again by the time the banana splits came. It's really a faith-strengthening roadtrip that's a lotta fun. For me, it's the best activity during Holy Week. :D

Now playing: Pokerface :>

So yeah, Visita was during Thursday and we were tired and sore and aching after the whole thing. But that didn't stop us from waking at 4 AM in the bloody morning the day after and go to Bataan for the weekend. Again with the people during Visita, we stopped by Andok's in Total NLEX to eat breakfast. We used the new SCTEX highway, which had awesome sights of fields and mountains and just wow... you feel like you're in some other country. It's so clean and simple and beautiful.

We arrived in my lolo's place a few hours before lunch. We went to my lola's grave to burn some time and to also see the mausoleum (is that how you spell it? :)) ) that was being built. We were supposed to join the procession at 5 like we always do but my sibling and cousins won't get out of the pool and everyone got lazy, so we just stayed in the house and sang karaoke. Well, only my tita and Kuya Bart did, me and my mom just watched. :P It being holy week, there was nothing on the tv so we had to make do with watching Judas (which was a really good religious movie. Go watch it) and The Ten Commandments, both on Studio 23. I really liked the movie Judas because it made you think twice about how people perceive Judas and his role in Jesus' life and death. He's not really that bad a guy if you think about it. And did you know he's Jesus' best friend? It's true!

We're supposed to only stay overnight there but something happened: WE PLAYED POKER. And then that was it. End of story. It was my first time to play and I got addicted instantly. I got to win a few times pa nga, and they were really good wins! We played later and later into the day until my dad gave in and said we'll just leave early the next day. Woo!

I love ginataang alimasag! I swear it's the best! :-P~

Being sensitive 101

I swear I need to get in touch with my feelings. And being careful with my words and reactions. Being apathetic isn't doing me much good anymore. @-) It's hurting the people I love. Gahhh.

I'm happy you're the one helping me with this. :)

April 8

is April 8 :)


can you tell that I'm bored? :))

Bored but happy

Because I made a new friend :)

Nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy

I deperately need to stop over-analyzing every little thing. Stop making stupid and impossible assumptions that only lead to false hope. Stop thinking too highly of myself, feeling I'm the center of attention. I need to control my overactive imagination. I have to stop being so damn desperate and deluding myself on something that would never, ever happen.

I really don't know what's going on. I thought that phase was over, then it comes back suddenly. It's not like me but it just keeps coming back. Am I really this deep in desperation?

I seriously, seriously want to bang my head on a wall, just to forget.






I want out.







Because I'm just pointlessly, slowly killing myself, and none would be the wiser.

You need to lie in order to live sometimes

I haven't heard from anyone besides the people in my house lately. I'm starting to get bored and I can't get pass the last dude in File 1 of Amateur Surgeon. He keeps dying of burns/excessive ant bites/his heart stopping. Gaaaah. I want to go out again with all my kada this time. Syd's was soooo fun but I missed Bernice. :( And I don't remember much after I drank idon'tknowhowmany shots of tequila and glasses of the thing inside the pitcher... I think I fell asleep most of the time. :)) I really don't get how people can stand being drunk a lot. Being tipsy is fun and okay, but once you start puking and falling asleep on the toilet bowl, it's something entirely different. I can't wait for the next inuman, though. Hahahaha.

Bernice, Syd, Cea, Alex!! Let's go out again soon! It should be all of us coz I miss everyone already. I don't like being bored at all. :( Let's go before everyone goes abroad/somewhere far and I get hopelessly stuck here until you all get back. :O

I confirmed my UP slot today

It feels good to finally decide on a college.

I am now officially a Fighting Maroon.

5 more days til grad! Bring it on! :)

I need my tennis fix!

I SERIOUSLY NEED TO WATCH TENNIS. I think I'm going through a withdrawal. I can't watch live matches on tv anymore! I hate our new cable for not having both ESPN and Star Sports! All we have is Basketball TV -- that's so lame! How am I supposed to watch and support Roger Federer now?! I only get updates from the news and/or the internet, but I still need to watch live matches!!! Especially now that it's Indian Wells which is the first tournament Roger's joining ever since he lost his #1 spot. HE NEEDS MY SUPPORT NOW!! Anyone know where I can watch live streams online? :

And about the news that my Roger's going to be a dad soon. I heard about it around two nights before and I don't know whether I should be happy or sad. On one hand, I'm super duper excited for Roger and Mirka. I want to see their baby soon. I'd bet it will be sooo cute! On the other hand, it means that he's seriously out of the market now. Yeah, asa pa ako right? But still.. D:

I hope Roger Federer wins this time! I'd be super happy if he did. Allez Roger!

A bout of depression

I felt so sad yesterday. As in when my relatives who lived near us came over our house to celebrate, I was so down. I actually broke down thrice. I dunno why I was so depressed but I had to run up to the bathroom just to let it out. I washed my face and told myself, "What's wrong with you? Stop crying, for God's sakes." Sigh... It makes me wonder if I have depression. Not just feeling "emo" but the actual sickness. I mean, this wasn't the first time I felt really sad for no apparent reason. Like one minute I'm okay, then I'll be depressed and I won't fell better for a long time. Maybe I'm bipolar? I dunno, but both are bad news : Yesterday I felt empty and heavy at the same time. I was thinking of all my problems and misfortunes that for a minute I could suddenly relate to Hamlet. And it had to happen on my birthday. Happy birthday. Isn't that ironic?

Sigh. Why so sad? I need to be happier!

book review: The Hunger Games

It has been a while since I read a book that wasn't a school requirement. Oh wait, I did read 1 and a third of the Twilight books. Let me rephrase that sentence (ehem).

It has been a while since I read a book that I actually really liked and finished. That's better. I don't want people getting ideas. Haha. Anyway, the book I'm talking about is The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins.

Can I just say that I LOVED this book? I seriously wasn't able to put it down until my eyelids were falling like they were made of lead. Unlike Twilight which took me months to finish (which is so unlike me), I finished this baby in more or less two days. It was so beautiful and exciting and vivid it felt like a movie was playing in your head while you read. The narrative is pretty straightforward yet you can picture the fictional world accurately. It has everything: action, adventure, romance, that a lot of people will like it. It's a young adult novel, yet it tackles subject like politics, poverty, opression, etc. that it's actually a deep read that makes you think.

Here's a blurb of what the book is basically about for those interested:

"Twenty- four are forced to enter. Only the winner survives.

In the ruins of a place once known as North America lies the nation of Panem, a shining Capitol surrounded by twelve outlying districts. Each year, the districts are forced by the Capitol to send one boy and one girl between the ages of twelve and eighteen to participate in the Hunger Games, a brutal and terrifying fight to the death – televised for all of Panem to see.

Survival is second nature for sixteen-year-old Katniss Everdeen, who struggles to feed her mother and younger sister by secretly hunting and gathering beyond the fences of District 12. When Katniss steps in to take the place of her sister in the Hunger Games, she knows it may be her death sentence. If she is to survive, she must weigh survival against humanity and life against love."

I got that from the official website of the book. The Hunger Games is really addictive and will keep you on the edge of your seat until the very last page. I loved it til the end and I can't wait for the second book (yes, this is part of a planned trilogy - the next book's coming out on September 2009)!!!

THIS IS SERIOUSLY A MUST READ!! SO GO READ IT!

March 11

It was March 11, 2008 when my lola died. A year after, I still miss her but I've already come to accept it. I know she's in a better and happier place now.

My parents and two of my siblings went to the special mass for my lola with the rest of our relatives and I guess family friends as well. Me and my sister didn't get to go since we still had school today. Well... even if I wasn't there physically, I still prayed for her.

Happy 1st year in heaven, lola! I love you very much! :)

I made it :)

Yeah, the mushy batch message was posted before this when it should have been the other way around, but I'm still going to anyway. Just try and stop me. :))

Finally, it's over.

Senior year is (technically) done. All that is left is for me to march up that stage and get that much coveted diploma I've been working my ass off for 4 years.

After a week of sleepless nights and cramming til the wee hours of the morning, I can finally relax and slow down.

It has been difficult, but I've managed to survive...
- months of the research paper
- college entrance exams
- insane projects
- deadly deadlines
- classes that suck the energy and life out of you
- Unit Tests and Term Exams (I might actually just miss these)

Of course, with all the things you don't look forward to every morning you wake up, there are things that I will miss when everything's really done, like...
- my class- IV-2, I will love you forever
- Shakespeare Festivals
- everyday sabaw moments in class
- everyday hyper moments in class
- class retreats
- all my friends
- gimmicks after school
- ENGLISH CLASSES- I'd go back and sit-in in one of these anytime
- some teachers I will definitely miss
- and of course, batch Twenty_09

As the cliche saying goes, it has been one hella bumpy rollercoaster ride. But it was one ride that has been worth it every single moment.

"When you set out on your journey to Ithaca, pray that the road is long, full of adventure, full of knowledge..." - Ithaca, Constantine P. Cavafy

Batch TWENTY_09 is love

It has been one of the greatest journeys in my life so far.

Every person, every encounter, every moment has left something in me that I could never lose.

We've all made it this far, and the end is in plain sight.

We did it, guys. We did it all together.

Batch Twenty_09, thank you and I love you.

First post

I've made other blogs in other sites before, but they all met the same fate of dying and withering away after only just a few posts. But not anymore! Now, I'll try to make a conscious effort of making this a part of my online routine. Maybe even a part of me.


Let's keep our fingers crossed. :)