I'd go wherever you will go

I'm supposed to be in Bora right now with you. But my parents won't allow me, just because. :

6 days left before you go and leave for the States. And we still haven't met up.

I'm missing you already. :(

It's official! :D

Roger Federer FINALLY got married to his long-time girlfriend Mirka! :D :D

Read Roger's announcement here: http://www.rogerfederer.com/en/rogers/news/newsdetail.cfm?uNewsID=889

Becoming a dad and now a husband in one year! @-) You're tennis career might be going down hill (it's going to go up again though, like a rollercoaster! I believe in you!) nowadays, but your personal life's just blooming! Congrats to you! :D

Go Fed!

Bisita Iglesia, Bataan, Being sensitive 101

Notice how they all start with a B? :))

I really say 'Visita Iglesia', but for this blog's creativity's sake, it's 'Bisita', aryt? Cool.

14 stations, 12 churches

How did that happen, you ask? The original plan was one station per church, but almost everyone was tired by the end that we decided to do two stations each for the last two churches. Makes sense now? :))

We haven't done Visita in I think 3 years so it felt good to finally do it again. It's like a family tradition because I've been doing it ever since I can remember. It was our whole family plus our 2 maids, my tito, tita, and 2 cousins. We met up and started in Merville, then went to Moonwalk, then (not in order because I forgot which went first) other parts of Paranaque, then Baclaran, then Quezon City (UST!),then Las Pinas, then the university belt area, then Intramuros, then the Manila Bay area. It was weird because there were A LOT of people in Manila than we expected, coz usually everyone would already be in the provinces or abroad and only a few would be left in the city. The churches were all packed and it was mostly traffic! I guess a lot changed in those 3 years. :P

After around 7 hours of travelling, walking, sweating, praying, sight-seeing, etc., we finally finished all the stations. As a reward/our lunch at 3:30 PM, we ate in Aristocrat! Everyone was galit-galit (meaning not talking to/minding each other) as we ate our plates of barbecue chicken with java sauce and java rice. We started being friendly again by the time the banana splits came. It's really a faith-strengthening roadtrip that's a lotta fun. For me, it's the best activity during Holy Week. :D

Now playing: Pokerface :>

So yeah, Visita was during Thursday and we were tired and sore and aching after the whole thing. But that didn't stop us from waking at 4 AM in the bloody morning the day after and go to Bataan for the weekend. Again with the people during Visita, we stopped by Andok's in Total NLEX to eat breakfast. We used the new SCTEX highway, which had awesome sights of fields and mountains and just wow... you feel like you're in some other country. It's so clean and simple and beautiful.

We arrived in my lolo's place a few hours before lunch. We went to my lola's grave to burn some time and to also see the mausoleum (is that how you spell it? :)) ) that was being built. We were supposed to join the procession at 5 like we always do but my sibling and cousins won't get out of the pool and everyone got lazy, so we just stayed in the house and sang karaoke. Well, only my tita and Kuya Bart did, me and my mom just watched. :P It being holy week, there was nothing on the tv so we had to make do with watching Judas (which was a really good religious movie. Go watch it) and The Ten Commandments, both on Studio 23. I really liked the movie Judas because it made you think twice about how people perceive Judas and his role in Jesus' life and death. He's not really that bad a guy if you think about it. And did you know he's Jesus' best friend? It's true!

We're supposed to only stay overnight there but something happened: WE PLAYED POKER. And then that was it. End of story. It was my first time to play and I got addicted instantly. I got to win a few times pa nga, and they were really good wins! We played later and later into the day until my dad gave in and said we'll just leave early the next day. Woo!

I love ginataang alimasag! I swear it's the best! :-P~

Being sensitive 101

I swear I need to get in touch with my feelings. And being careful with my words and reactions. Being apathetic isn't doing me much good anymore. @-) It's hurting the people I love. Gahhh.

I'm happy you're the one helping me with this. :)

April 8

is April 8 :)


can you tell that I'm bored? :))

Bored but happy

Because I made a new friend :)

Nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy

I deperately need to stop over-analyzing every little thing. Stop making stupid and impossible assumptions that only lead to false hope. Stop thinking too highly of myself, feeling I'm the center of attention. I need to control my overactive imagination. I have to stop being so damn desperate and deluding myself on something that would never, ever happen.

I really don't know what's going on. I thought that phase was over, then it comes back suddenly. It's not like me but it just keeps coming back. Am I really this deep in desperation?

I seriously, seriously want to bang my head on a wall, just to forget.






I want out.







Because I'm just pointlessly, slowly killing myself, and none would be the wiser.

You need to lie in order to live sometimes

I haven't heard from anyone besides the people in my house lately. I'm starting to get bored and I can't get pass the last dude in File 1 of Amateur Surgeon. He keeps dying of burns/excessive ant bites/his heart stopping. Gaaaah. I want to go out again with all my kada this time. Syd's was soooo fun but I missed Bernice. :( And I don't remember much after I drank idon'tknowhowmany shots of tequila and glasses of the thing inside the pitcher... I think I fell asleep most of the time. :)) I really don't get how people can stand being drunk a lot. Being tipsy is fun and okay, but once you start puking and falling asleep on the toilet bowl, it's something entirely different. I can't wait for the next inuman, though. Hahahaha.

Bernice, Syd, Cea, Alex!! Let's go out again soon! It should be all of us coz I miss everyone already. I don't like being bored at all. :( Let's go before everyone goes abroad/somewhere far and I get hopelessly stuck here until you all get back. :O